This is going to be a very long post. It will tell you almost everything that has impacted me greatly this year. But it don't matter because its a note to self for Shawn. When he looks back he hopes he wants to remember whats was great for him.
Okay, now thats over I have so much to talk about. Now I have the time its best I write about the fun, sad and memorable. I just this is a place for me to bleed it out. I need to.
I looked back at all my archives and I realised how vulgar I was and how I havent changed a lot. Like the songs I loved i still play in my phone. The words I used, the tones of my typed speech. Whatever. But i guess this year really taught me a lesson on priorities, which is like the word of my life now. It really taught me so much about friends and their value. but lets start with a 2009 to early 2010 recap since I was in boarding then and I didnt manage to blog. And end of with this new post now. A year after my last one. :D If i get incoherent. so be it huh!
2009.
I'm so surprised I didn't talk about the concert with BEP and Beyonce. I know its really shallow/pointless, but I had the time of my life then. Not only because of the performer, but because of the people I was with. haiz.
RLP. It was the greatest time of my life. But also because of the friends. But then the experience in itself was also a gift and I am glad for that :D
Regrets. :/ MAN THE REGRET
(really thats all there is worth about 2009 that i havent blogged about)
2010 (oh no marathon typing. LETS GO)
RP
What a year. I can only say that being with my CCA, I have learnt so much about myself, whether I wanted to know it or not. And I can only say a big thank you guys. and a even bigger sorry. Here goes:
We had the time of our lives making Through a Fishbowl. The audience had an awesome time watching it. And we lived through the days we thought we'd never see thru. I mean nothing out 2 weeks before? 9 of us ONLY and we had to do all that whe everything went wrong? yongqin, the piano, the stage. omg it was just. a miracle. and I'm just so glad it worked out.
but i am SO SORRY. I just cannot imagine what I did during the dramafeste period was what i did in my right mind. I so sorry to have almost betrayed you guys for a whole month. I meet seem like I'm fronting strong and having other friends. But i've frineds that were more similar to me than you guys. I mean. We did everything together. And i'm so sorry i let the whole df thing destroy us. But, just forgive me will you guys. I know yall might never see this but aliff amirul and tzy could yall please forgive me. Just for old time sake? I remember the days in es. The ora time. The production times. I mean I've just been talking to ms sara and then i would bawl my eyes out. for an hour and sometimes at home I would have just think of the friendships i've lost and sobbed even more. Maybe you dont see it but whats the point? It hurts when you reply so coldy and I see you everywhere but i cant say hi. Please? Maybe its too much to ask but arent friends supposed to forgive and forget. I can hope, right? But its been 4 months and nothing can or has been healed. I just. can't take it. But i will hope and hope. I'm just so sorry for not treasuring the friendship we had. That untainted one which ive just smeared all over.
Okay. Now thats over. lets talk about happier things? Right? D: At least it worth remembering some of these. Not in detail though since they dont have as much impact.
Friends
Hey, at least i cant be thankful for all of you that i can still talk to.
6/12 - Haha I know we dont talk alot but i'm just so glad to know I still have yall near me when I need it. I wanna say i regret not hanging out with yall more and not being there sometimes. BUT I TREASURE EVERYONE DEEPLY for 10 years now :D. yall are great. and haha (y) clare for the recent late night convos. and thanks for reminding me just so recently about values of life.
4c - If you read this you know who you are. Omg I love yall. MINGE for being so, well MINGE. YC for being my class bestie. :D the many many kbox,bitch sessions and things we did. :D Sanat for being the guy that made me like(love) rap(some). I can talk to you guys forever. And we are so dysfunctional. and sim for being so dumb haha(so mean, me). JOSHUA for being my rlp2 buddy and your love affair with _____ and how you would be so happy and our *ahem* escapades where you showed your prowess. and yala everyone else who considers themselves our clique(noone right). Yall might not read this but it's been awesome, just thanks :D
RLP ORGCOMM- what can I say you guys are awesome. SEX is the best source of many things huh. Yuhui and zhiyou for being roommates. Yuhui for being the ear when i simply had to breakdown :D GANG AND PHANG(rhymes lol) yall are so funny together omg. Zhiyou you aso quite weird ah. And Mr lim. Nothing but uncontrolled gratitude is given from me to you.
df- Hey if anyone from df reads this I wanna say, I had the time of my life with yall. Jordan, jordaan. terry. Haha sec4 year in df first time not bad eh? yall are great. Sec1s, you will shine so bright for rp (and bayley) in the future there is nothing that will stop you, other than maybe yourselves(jovi i wanna say that you are so strong for living thru what you have. you might be freethinking, I am too but it's so much better to know shes up there looking down on you). Samuel you horny slut. ;D to you too la. BUT I AM SO STRAIGHT K. And aliff we did df 3 years together. At least we had that. :/ and weihan. You suffer so much injustice but you are biggest ball of happiness. And gossip hahah. you rulez. even thou it had horrible effect i love everyone here. :D
And shrey. Thanks for being so gracious. I know that if I had won the award I wouldn't have shared it with you. SO thats all I can say. I admire,respect and deeply appreciate you sharing your best actor award with me. Even though you truly had it for yourself. :D
Rest of rp- hey little kids, I know you wont read this but you are so much better than your sec4s when we were small. All of you are great actors and drama dudes you will be so good in the future. :D i know it. and i'm sad i couldnt spend more time with yall. But i know my awesomeness rubbed off. And the sec3s, however few of you. The hopes are really high. Awesome time with yall anytime Keep each other in control. And this is esp for shrey: I'm proud of you already and i havent even seen you in action. In fact i admire you. so it'll be awesome. and terry. You are just awesome. SO awesome. Good luck for exams even thou you wont see this good luck for tmrw. thanks for everything too. And also i only mean the best for you. hehe. your mom really is jesus huh.
Old RLP1 Gang- omg sean cham shaw shiaun yangterng aliff and joseph. You da best la. I hope you guys still rmbr the times we had.
Random dudes:
Kaicong- No need say right. we are bets friend forever. I mean your stories crack me up. and we love god right ;D!
Bumsoo- Its hard since alot of people say shit about you. But I'm just happy i could ignore the flak and be your buddie:D
Teunyee- *whistle* YEAH!
Foong- LALALALALA I am so into you(><). Yeah. Thanks so much for the blogpost, i cant believe you did it. But I AM NOT THE THING YOU THINK I AM. but the convos we had are revealing and I am SO GLAD to have known you better. Just in time too.
4ch Chinese class- Yall are awesome la tolerate my singing in class. Hongshee is so awesome. Im glad to have everyone here.
Ms sara- thank you for tolerating with my paranoia and esteem issues. You really are the best teacher. really.
Yiming- You la eternal friend :D
Old 2P gang in 4c- :D nothing but lurve.
Bryan- you slut. you da best.
4c and 2p- not the most bonded classes. but i rmbr you guys for life
If i have forgotten anyone, i dont mean to. I really want to say i love everyone(aft a story i heard).
So thats the people. The events came along too.
But i guess i can still list some:
my results are stunning this year omg. eng portfolio? anyone?
i am so much more confident. life has been a real ball
I'm into sports i think. I'm also into rap. esp NICKI MINAJ NICKI MINAJ
I saw adam lambert, chris daughtry and Mairah carey live. MARIAH CAREY AHHHH.
new jobs! MONEY
rafflesian spotlight?
a year where i did so many new things. its the same every year but more.
grrr unspeakable love.
i can sing so much better now! thanks glee. and obv all the divas b4 that for couching me with your songs
BITCHFEST YEAR
everything else.
man this year was a blur. a good.bad blur? i dunno.
But for all the fun. Ive had a ton more regrets and mistakes than anything. I might not have wanted them but I needed them and I have grown. The price might have been pretty high. But i learnt.
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and I try. i always try. and i can only hope always.
Shawn 2010
:/