I'm restarting this blogging process because a) some of my friends are still blogging/have begun blogging again and it makes such an interesting read(save for a few one cryptic motherf---er) and so I'd thought I'd return the favour! b) Clare tells me to and she says it's carthartic.

HENCEFORTH BEGINS A SERIES OF COMPLETELY NON-SEQUITUR THOUGHTS. I find such a thought process has come to define Shawn.

1
I'm really doubting the Carthasis that comes out of this blogging process! I Mean there's always this public audience; no matter how small, and the fact that shit stays forever online and there might be unforeseen consequences to what you post ie, @Steph! I guess this lends itself to the problem that out of the many facets of Shawn or experiences I do have, only the few that coincide with my preffered 'me' will surface.
How's that Carthatic in any sense? The Greek assume Cartharsis correctly as perceived by an AUDIENCE member because the extremely complicated internal dealings of a person in response to tragedy were (hopefully) completely honest to each individual and each individual could respond to the unnerving truths they had seen. But consider that what I put up is not 100% me, not because I'm fake(maybe la) but because there is so much of.. well, me that scares me? And that also had irreparable implications.

Also, I have a personal written diary so I much prefer that.

2
This is really random, but since I've already reflected about 2012 let me be shallow and share the most shallow thing I reflected upon which was my looks. Haha I really do believe I am strangely comfortable with the way I look now. Exeunt

3
I can't stand people who act like they are totally in demand in any group even when theyre not. AND EVEN WHEN THEY ARE ACTUALLY. It lends no support to the group and it's dynamics. The veracity of your "in-demandness" lends no credit to your behaviour. Seriously? Why would you that? To seem cool? and Popular? I thought such concepts dated in the teens and we are WAAAAAYY past that? No friends then hang out, busy then dont. WHAT THE F--- is the problem what strange demented, tormented Mean Girls quote have you come to identify with that causes such behaviour?
Worse still are people who judge me when I genuinely have no idea what to do but just want to weld a group and gel a group together and be a part of that group. This is in reference to no group in particular and don't guess because I have a fair share too many. Scratch that I think there's nothing wrong with wanting a million friends and being sincere is wanting to be that close to all of them. If I let you read my like an open book, accept the fact and move on. Read the damn book!
WHY JUDGE ME FOR BEING SO OPEN SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT?
I'm not entirely sure if being that open book is entirely my decision, and it doesn't matter. I just hope people are still naive enough to believe what I choose to! And perspicacious enough to deduce that such a belief is still very much worth holding on to.

4
Turn towards brevity?! Brevity is the soul of wit but damn son, your potrait of a mofo thousand words is typed by a bunch of monkey jamming keys. There is but that much meaning in gibberish.

You're not a poet, your not a guy whose name starts with th and has references to a penis.

What is the point of an audience if the title is longer that the story.

THIS AINT SCOODY DOO

THIS AINT GOONI GOO GOO

THIS AINT POETRY SLAM.

(non sequitur)

what kind of performance is this

Get a diary. This thought belongs in a diary hahahaha.

5
I love Cloud Atlas @Sudeep if you are reading. #YOUYND
Just a movie with such intricate attention to detail and Im a detail nigger so yeah.
So much to think about to and yes so much to feel.

Sigh I need a vlog thoughts are just slowly slipping out of my head.

Labels: birthdays, good news, hehe, long post, NOT happy, time waster, wasting time

Wheehee.

There's really nothing nicer than to have people who just give.

Really. I mean yesterday my friend's mum bought me a Krumpler bag(the normal one) and his sis bought me a shirt. I looked at the price tag(of the shirt) when i got home and i saw 69.90. yeaouch. Anyways, its all a long story why I got these presents so here goes.

Chronicles of the fair Lady Krumpler and Sir Puma:
Hehe. so what happenened is my friends phails at ss. PHAILS. so he needed a ss file for the retest. this is a really awesome friend, btw. like we both have the same interests in movies and music. now that is RARE considering my weird myriad of tastes. we both like DREAMGIRLS. singing loudly, singing diva songs loudly, disturbing neighbours, and black people. haha. so i went ot his house just to hangout and we like karaoked alot of songs that erm. sorta disturbed the neighbourhood, and we both look like crazy people when we sing. yeah. HAHA

so anyway, his mum borrowed my ss file for him. and erm, also we're really close. i guess. oh yeah and i helped his sis in some drama thing(more in pt.2), and apparently it really helped her. and she takes me like a godchild. so while on the way back to their house.

She said "Shawn ah mai gei ni"
I was like "wut?"
And she was like " bu yong ke qi la. na la na la"

Chronicles of the fair Lady Krumpler and Sir Puma(pt.2):
So his sister is like vp of the hcjc drama club(AWESUM). and so they have yearly camps where that have secondary school participants and they need to send invites everyyear. they usually have 30 participants. they had 14. so a week before she asked me to muster as many ri boys as i could, so i enlisted rp(GO RP) and some random ppl that my juniors knew. tada! out came 8(or 9?) boys and the attendace shot up by erm. eh. i cant do math. but alot %. Luckily there were alot of chij girls, or the gender ratio would have been weird. and his sis said that RGS(looking at you,clare) participates every year, but this year, in her own words "they have some stupid artsfest thing". I agreed with her. the camp was awesome and those rgs girls sure missed out on alot. So they she was like thank god for you peeps, or else there would have been more facilitators than partipants. and so she bought me the shirt and told her mum, who in turn bought me the bag. yeaouch. anyways, their awesome people, with alot of cash.

~the end~

time to talk about the rest of life. which is erm.








.wait for it.









NOTHING. D:


Well actually no. Went to JJ's house on like the 17th, dont rmbr exactly when but i played rock band for the first time, with bryan. it was before bryan was gonna leave for franch for 5 weeks. (JEALOUS MUCH) anyway they both have the game at home. so i was the noob. and i cant really do much but Sing. (YESH I CAN SING CLAR) so i sang like 7 diff. songs I HAD NEVER HEARD BEFORE all about 70 percent score but had a song i was really good at 97% erm. i think its by fall out boy? dead on arrival or something. anyways rock aint my music. i mean look above for lady gaga.


I SWEAR, i really hate the songs in that game, but hey, music is music,and i got 97%. awesome right! and i dont even know the songs. then they wanted to sing some rock song that i didnt know. surprise surprise! you;re not gonna find a nine inch nails or KISS fan here. so i started drumming. on easy mode. and i failed twice. but hey, im learning. always am. never did try out guitar. we ended up stopping and the day became boring as we debated on what movie to watch. sadly. bryan wanted american pie and jj wanted something touching. i couldnt be bothered so i tried karaokeparty, but failed since there was no mic. and then we ended up wqsting time and then dinner with pizza wathcing death race. and then they playing fifa xbox soccer. buh, while i went up to househunt and all my other facebook apps. i came down and palyed 2 games and i'm never playing fifa xbox again. they even named a move after me.

Shawn. defn: the kick the ball out after a few successive kicks.
defn2: shoot at the audience

So yeah. and then bryan lost really badly with erm a penalty shot. and they started wrestling. its fun to see kids fight. anyway after 15 rounds they decided it was a tied, but i still think jj won. fun stuff. then i went home, driving bryan to the mrt with me as well.

okay erm. i really think thats about all that happened since the holidays, other than camp react, but i think camp react should be said through pictures so thats in "videos of shawn" on facebook. haha. like 5 minutes of montage. likea 50000 word essay.

oh and yeah. my sec4 year WILL be a blast for RP. i will ensure it.

Labels: Bored, friends, Happy, hehe, long post, plans, wasting time

OMG GOSH EXAM ARR OVER.

*Does weird crunk dance, the sort you see in the 80s videos that doesn't really look like dancing, but more like arms and legs in particularly pattern-like movement, like what the Zohan dances like, you know that sort of dancing*

*Cools Down*

*you might see so many typos that you'll think that i'm insane, but I am, SO GET USED TO IT*

*does the pop'n'lock dance wildly. wiki/google that*

Phew. Alrite. Now that i'm sane, or less insane than my usual self, let me chronicle my life thus far in this harrowing eoy period. *pauses*

LIFE HAS BEEN AWESOME.

Yup, contrary to what most people would feel, life in Boarding gives the EOY period a new freshness, I guess. I mean how often do you actually have the discipline to sit down and do 400 marks worth of math? Only when eveyrone around you is doing that same. And how often can you just pop by to your neighbours room and sit down and eat cup noodles(free.btw) and study bio, or teach them chem(rhymes). ITS FRIKING AWESOME. Anyway, i've got one week left in boarding, i've got an awesome/weird roomie(no not awesomely weird) and hes got similar views with me on life and all and we can tlak about stuff, AND he's in a external chinese drama club, and how cool is that! So i'll be missing him once boarding life is over, and altho we'll meet in school it'll be different as friends nia. ROOMIES FTW! And erm everytihng boarding ghas with it as well. Really missing the lifestlye soon even thou i have like 1.5 weeks of boaridng left.

Right, now to talk about other stuff. Those from SHPS, ya'll know Sanat? The 6/9 dude? No?

*silence*

Okay anyways he was my classmate in p3 and we always compared abt who was funnier and all, and I guess he is now, but after I left for GEP never tot I would see ihm again but we're in the SAME FRIKING CLASS NOW, and hes so lame lunch with him is truly awesome. Although I am still smarter than him I mean 3.65> 3.2-3.3 right? Anyways, never tot and it truly been a great surprise to meet him again. Sanat most probably will never read this but if your seeing this, you're a great friend!

Right. about yesterday. I was STARING at clare on the train and my ri friends tot I was looking her up(wtf, classmates?!) and I kinda looked like a pervert. but anyway, it took clare a total number of 6 stops before she was like SHAWN! SORRYX10. I was kinda amused. And we didnt talk , since ti would be awkward for the 2 groups of friends. Really wanted to walk over and ask u where mg is today, and what to do since our exams are over(take that AYJ) at mg, and I DONT HAVE CARDS, but my immature friends were teasing me. GROW UP CLASS MATES. Buh if you're thinking why i was on the train with them in the first place, it's because there the only ppl in my class to live in the east.

And about MG. CLAR YOU HAVE to show me the fonnian lore, I keep hearing about and it already sounds like such a deep unirverse with so much to explore! I heard i got a tribe names after my barbequing expertise. hmm. waiting for that. And there so much to it I HAVE TO READ/SEE IT!

And about after exams plans I HAVE NOT IDEA WHAT IMA GONNA DO? Im thinking of finding a job, learning a new language, getitng fitter, learn a new skill and slack. COME ON 6.12/3c/RP give me ideas and things to do!

hmm. about RP. I really wonder whats gonna happen next year. I can only hope and wish.

ps. Bryan seethor are you happy now that I;ve given you Sb+ for your bday! HUH? HUH? gah why am i so nice to you

Labels: birthdays, Bored, end of eoys, Fail, friends, good news, guilty, Happy, hehe, long post, Must Watch, plans, wasting time

Haha everything in the past week has been absolutely fantastic.

List of things to blog about:-
CRVII
Lit up
Movie(Drag me to Hell)
Friends
Future.

ooh agenda.

Come back tmrw to do all this.

Labels: good news, long post, piles of homework, plans, time waster, wasting time

POOP Review

The play, POOP, staged by the Finger Players, is easily one of the best plays I've watched. This is by no means a sweeping statement, since almost every aspect of the play, in my opinion at least, was good. POOP tells a story of how a family copes at first with the death of the sole breadwinner, the father(played by Julius Foo) and then the death of the child(played by Jean Ng).

The script itself was average and it was the weakest point of the play. Although the genre of the play was “dark comedy”, I felt that the inclusion of some jokes were unnecessary, and it was although the only point of the jokes was to break the enormous tension that the actors had and the audience was feeling. One example would be when the child was hallucinating about the ghosts outside the MRT, and one of the ghost said," Jesus said I could be Mother Mary's tampons!". The audience stilled laughed since it was a welcome break of tension, but it was quite a forced insertion of the joke.

The script's theme was that of how death could bring a family together. I felt that the theme had been already well explored in many other pieces of art, and that both the context and theme were both slightly unoriginal. However, every other aspect of the play brought the play to a whole new professional level. Which brings me to comment on my next point, the staging and directing.

Although Director Playwright Chong Tze Chien had slight weaknesses in his script, his directing was simply sublime. His staging was amazing; he managed to use the depth of the stage to bring out his usage of puppetry, to show the conflict between the Mother and Grandmother(especially in the underground tunnel scene, were the child is forced to follow one or the other). He managed to using the wonderful space to show the anger in the child when she was forced to draw a family photo. He managed to use perceptions of size to make the child's character more believable. He managed to use puppetry to show the beautiful relationship between daughter and father. His use of props was masterful. I could go on, but my fingers are tired. However, it wasn't a one-man show; his lights manager, puppeteer, sound manager, stage manager, production manager and publicity crew were important too, so kudos to them too.

However, I felt that what really made the audience cry was not the script, but it was the actors. All of the actors didn't just portray the role, they WERE the role. All of the actors were so in their role and as an audience so physically close to them, I could not help but feel the grief and emotion of all the actors. Janice Koh was sublime in her portrayal of a deeply hurt wife. She tries so deeply to be the sole pillar of sanity in the family, but the grandmother's constant blabbering to her granddaughter about how the father is just disappeared, like poop, really brings her to her knees as the mother(Janice) didn't want to remember anything of that dreaded husband of hers anymore, who was so selfish as to let go of his life for happiness and leave his family behind. Same for Neo Swee Lin, whose portrayal as a grandmother humiliation by her son's suicide, but yet tries to keep the whole family together. Julius Foo, as a man unhappy who just leaves his family, his connection with his daughter is really touching. Jean Ng, as a confused girl, was so naive and innocent I couldn't help to feel sorry for her. Each actor's dedication, training and passion shone through in their acting. Their stage presence and energy was so strong I didn't feel the need to check the time, wipe away my tears or even move. I just watched this wonderful piece of theatre come to life. At the end, when the Grandmother and Mother both embrace each other and finally accept death and move on, something deep inside me felt warm and growled in agreement. And no, I wasn't hungry.

Labels: Bored, friends, long post, piles of homework, Rp, wasting time

Why who doesn't love and respect their father.

Noone right? But most do so because its a social norm.

Some parts of the post are going to sound dreary and HK-drama serial like, but heck.

Today was a great day. Started off school fine, and the day was slack. There was the all important "Friendship Day", had physics, which is an eternal bore(what in the World is Cathode Ray CRO and Kinematics?), and we had PE, where i skipped my 2.4 pretest because i was "Sick". After recess, continued a class viewing of Erin Brokovich, which is a true masterpiece of modern flim(ok not really but its good).

After that, slacked around school and tried to build up stamina by running but never got to it. Had RP auditions, where numerous sec 1s and 2s came to try out. I'm not supposed to say anything(would be so rude). However the sec3s were tasked with the job of acting along with the auditionees , which i told we did quite badly at but nvm. Some good talented guys. Thats all i think. And a better turnout than I expected.

After that just screwed around with the always fantastic RP guys. Thing done included:
a VERY violent pillow fight
Trying to balance 7 people on 2 wobbly cresent shaped sponges
Singing and Dancing and Acting
Accents
Answering Zac's queries since he was playing are u smarter than a 5th grader

After that had dinner with the family at the crazy ass tampines area. You know the one with 3 malls around one shopping mall? And it was peak period. So we had dinner, and we were walking back home (its only 1km) and then halfway thru the bus stop we see this old lady, the sort that collects cans, smells like poop and most probably has an unfillial son who cant give a shit. She most probably had sort of some rheumatic problem cuz she was limping quite badly.

She fell from her walking stick. The cans she collected split on the floor and NOONE BLOODY HELPED HER UP. For 5 minutes my dad was in a moral dilemma. We were waiting for someone else to help her(as most singaporeans do). Noone did. Why, in a busy crowd, society doesnt seem to care if a frail old lady just collapse upon herself. WHY? I don't know if this problem is an sg one, but i think it is. We really need some slapping to wake us up from our moral slumber.

However, Thank GOD (and morals)(and courage from my dad) my dad went up to the poor woman, helped her with her cans and picked her up. But she was wobbly and unstable, and she needed a hand to hold. My god the crowd looked at my dad as if he was wrong to help the woman. I was about to break out into a rant at the crowd but i kinda banished the thought. My dad, brave and unfazed, picked the woman up(and she smlt really bad btw, like bad yogurt), walked,or sortof lifted) her to the nearest coffe shop about 100meters away. Not a word of complaint from my dad. He sat her and bought her some food(my god was she bony).

Throught all this, I wanted to cry. In anger, sadness, and pure respect.

A. WHY ARE THERE HOMELESS OLD WOMAN ON THE STREETS? WHERE ARE THE CHILDREN? WHY ISN"T THE GOVERNMETN DOING ANYTHING? FUCK!

b. Oh wow. This lady needs help. Wonder if Alicia Goh still has that friends of hers friend in social services.

c. Dad. You da man. I mean, would u have the guts to help this lady in a crowd of people trying to kill each other to get the the buses, blocking ALL of them in the process, because u knew it was the right thing to do? i wouldn't. i dont have the guts. My dad does. *Bows in respect*

Do I respect my father? yes. of course i do. the event speaks for itself.

Labels: good news, long post, NOT happy, Rp, WTF

I have no time!

My holidays are so tiring. Let me share with you my daily schedule for the last week:

Monday: RP Syf from like 7 to 2, Then went to YDSP ceremony. Back home at 6. Homework after homework. Slack then Sleep.

Monday was great. At least I had free time to start on my physics and bio hw. The ydsp ceremony was memorable(and i'm kinda late about this post, but i was busy), the reception was fine and the guest of honours minster of def is TALL. And it felt great to wear a blazier and feel all prepped up. But my picture at the slideshow was so UGLY. They asked for a passport sized photo at the start of the process and i sent them my old one in P5! didnt know they were gonna show it to everyone...!The people there presenting were dedicated, though to say the least. Big shoutout HI to the girl sitting beside me! Thanks for the short chat, made me feel less bored and nervous ,since the guy to my right was so hostile. Heres how it went with me and him.

Me: Hi

Him: *silence*

Me: Ok nvm

Tueday: FREE DAY YEY!

Happy to do nothing on that day.

Wednesday: Full day of drama.

Started of with alot of groundwork for our props. We have to throw bricks at each other. Heavy, but i got used to it. ALOT of tightening of our play, at last, it looks like a piece of art now. Esp. liked our chereography for the battle scene, really fitting with the music. Ended at about 6 and justed chatted with RP ppl. Fun thing to do, really.

Thurday: Prep For SCSF

Yup. Prep. Took awhile but got the organisation down

Friday:SYF training in the morning

Yup. Again training. Spent afternoon slacking(again) with RP peeps. Went home to do homework.

Saturday(yesterday): SCSF then SYF training for dram AGain.

SCSF. Seemed really simple, the event, but then again it was great. Presentation to the judges, I felt, was mediocre and seemed really bad cuz we werent fluent or anything. there were 6 awards, 3 honarary and nickel(bronze), palladium(silver) and platinium(gold). When they annouced that the 3 honorary awards weren't for us, i almost knew we failed. Then the bronze wasn't ours either. But then we won silver! I mean it was the shock of my life lol. Cool medal, and got vouchers to spend on presents for the sec 3 RP and daniel (Earth Wind and Water and earth). Shoutout to you all too. Drama was fun, but nobody got the name of the competition right. They kept saying SFFC and SSECF and all the acronyms BUT SCSF. Basically they made fun of the name of the competition. AND they were also surprised that I won. Training was great, our last run was tight, and felt very complete. Anyways after that had a very long dinner chat with Zhiyuan, Greg and Chia. Good times lol. Stood there just listening to the basker at J8. Hes a real pro. Shoutout to the whole RP. and my science grp.

Weeks been busy. I need some rest.

Wow this sure is a long post

Labels: friends, Happy, hehe, long post, plans, Rp, wasting time

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