I'm restarting this blogging process because a) some of my friends are still blogging/have begun blogging again and it makes such an interesting read(save for
a few one cryptic motherf---er) and so I'd thought I'd return the favour! b) Clare tells me to and she says it's carthartic.
HENCEFORTH BEGINS A SERIES OF COMPLETELY NON-SEQUITUR THOUGHTS. I find such a thought process has come to define Shawn.
1
I'm really doubting the Carthasis that comes out of this blogging process! I Mean there's always this public audience; no matter how small, and the fact that shit stays forever online and there might be unforeseen consequences to what you post ie, @Steph! I guess this lends itself to the problem that out of the many facets of Shawn or experiences I do have, only the few that coincide with my preffered 'me' will surface.
How's that Carthatic in any sense? The Greek assume Cartharsis correctly as perceived by an AUDIENCE member because the extremely complicated internal dealings of a person in response to tragedy were (hopefully) completely honest to each individual and each individual could respond to the unnerving truths they had seen. But consider that what I put up is not 100% me, not because I'm fake(maybe la) but because there is so much of.. well, me that scares me? And that also had irreparable implications.
Also, I have a personal written diary so I much prefer that.
2
This is really random, but since I've already reflected about 2012 let me be shallow and share the most shallow thing I reflected upon which was my looks. Haha I really do believe I am strangely comfortable with the way I look now. Exeunt
3
I can't stand people who act like they are totally in demand in any group even when theyre not. AND EVEN WHEN THEY ARE ACTUALLY. It lends no support to the group and it's dynamics. The veracity of your "in-demandness" lends no credit to your behaviour. Seriously? Why would you that? To seem cool? and Popular? I thought such concepts dated in the teens and we are WAAAAAYY past that? No friends then hang out, busy then dont. WHAT THE F--- is the problem what strange demented, tormented Mean Girls quote have you come to identify with that causes such behaviour?
Worse still are people who judge me when I genuinely have no idea what to do but just want to weld a group and gel a group together and be a part of that group. This is in reference to no group in particular and don't guess because I have a fair share too many. Scratch that I think there's nothing wrong with wanting a million friends and being sincere is wanting to be that close to all of them. If I let you read my like an open book, accept the fact and move on. Read the damn book!
WHY JUDGE ME FOR BEING SO OPEN SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT?
I'm not entirely sure if being that open book is entirely my decision, and it doesn't matter. I just hope people are still naive enough to believe what I choose to! And perspicacious enough to deduce that such a belief is still very much worth holding on to.
4
Turn towards brevity?! Brevity is the soul of wit but damn son, your potrait of a mofo thousand words is typed by a bunch of monkey jamming keys. There is but that much meaning in gibberish.
You're not a poet, your not a guy whose name starts with th and has references to a penis.
What is the point of an audience if the title is longer that the story.
THIS AINT SCOODY DOO
THIS AINT GOONI GOO GOO
THIS AINT POETRY SLAM.
(non sequitur)
what kind of performance is this
Get a diary. This thought belongs in a diary hahahaha.
5
I love Cloud Atlas @Sudeep if you are reading. #YOUYND
Just a movie with such intricate attention to detail and Im a detail nigger so yeah.
So much to think about to and yes so much to feel.
Sigh I need a vlog thoughts are just slowly slipping out of my head.
Labels: birthdays, good news, hehe, long post, NOT happy, time waster, wasting time
Taken from...
Clar/Clare/Fon and AYJ (btw will be very to what has been said)
Pick 8 random friends you feel comfortable around. (including yourself for number 4).
1. Mistress Stonealot of the Blog, Goddess of Reunion-Organising and Sole Pillar of Sanity
2. Lady Toleratia of the Dry Wit, Jedi Master of Bashing People Over The Head, and Fantasist of the Seventh Circle, First Scribe of Twelvian Lore.
3. Sir Idiot-Brainlesse Maximus of Gitland and Whackadoodle, First Knight of Nonsense
4. King Nerdios Melodymaster, Demigod of Computer-Gaming and Physics, named also Calculus Complexitas.
5. Count Doofus Sillyidea, Lord of Music Disdain, and his dominion is over Tongue
6. Countess Twilightmania the Vampiric Chocoholic, who possesses the Wail of the Banshee
7. Princess Randomnessa Bipolaris, Ruler of the Blondhilites and Healer of the S'jab.
8. Magus Malav Dumbledore, Caretaker of the Great Fonnian Libraries and Owleries, Second Scribe of Twelvian Lore.
These eight people you just picked are stuck in a house with you for a whole year. There is no leaving the house at all until the year is completely up. If you had to choose a person for every question below, write down which person it would be. (oo exciting)
There are 4 rooms. Who will be in each room?
Room1- Clar and Clare and Mala
Room2- AYJ and Me
Room3- Tabi and Kim
Room4- The Fon
If there was someone singing in the morning who would it most likely be?
Room 2, sorta of like a fusion of diff. types of music. Pop-rock vocal stuff.
If someone was considered the dad and the mom of the house, who would it be?
Clare. And AYJ. I wonder what mom and dads do when their children are not around.
*Expanding on the family concept, what roles would the other six people take?
Well. I would be like the rude 2nd Brother. And Older sister Tabi would always be scolding me. Fon and Kim would be like squabbling twins. Clar and Mala would be the trapped in centre kids with normal outlooks but are totally insane like everyone else.
(Reality Show Worthy)
If you wanted candy really badly and all of the 7 in the house had some, who would you take it from?
I would take one from each person and amass a whole carton of candy to help me survive when one day mum and dad stop cooking cuz we pissed them off.
If someone had to watch you brush your teeth (every) morning, who would it be?
AYJ? Since we both only take 30 seconds, and both low cost maintenance. (Unlike Shirlyn if she came)
There was two bags of chips bought at the store, but 20 minutes later they are gone. Who ate them?
Fon. I would be angry but join in anyway,
Who would hate being in the house the most?
Noone, but seeing people too often make people less appreciative of one another.
Someone took your (brand spanking new) pair of socks that were never worn, who is the thief?
I don't think anyone actually did. I lost them.
Someone swept all the dirt under the rug, who was it?
Hmm. Fon or maybe even Kim if they were lazy to clean up.
If there was arguments in the house, who would be the ones arguing?
Depends on the topic, really.
Who would be the one missing their boyfriend/girlfriend that wasn’t in the house with them?
Well. Erm. Maybe. No.
You walked down stairs in the middle of the night for a glass of water, someone is dancing on the table in there Leopard Thong, who is the crazy one?
Shawn, and Fon are the more insane ones, so why not? NO WAY
I would never dance in a leopard thong. So tasteless, give me some big beehive dress and you'll see my dance the night away,
A pillow fight broke through, who started it?
Everyone. Its good stress relief.
There's a marathon of your favorite TV show, what is it? and who would be watching it with you?
I think everyone in the fellowship like a tv show. Mostly Sitcoms and Reality TV.
Someone made a fort in the laundry room, who was the kid?
Not me. Mala and Clare maybe?
There’s a prankster in the house that put plastic on the two toilets in the house, who are the pranksters?
I would.
The music's too loud, who turned it up?
Shawn. Or me. Or both. I bet we were listening to say, idk, RJA and blasting as we sang along
(really? RJA is really hard to sing along with. Maybe something easier like chris daughtry)
There's a mouse crawling on the floor all over the house,
a)who is the first one to scream?
youngest sis, aka kim
b)who is the one to jump into someone's arms?
youngest bro, aka fon
c)who would be the one to kill it?
I would. But then chicken out. SO mum and dad.
*d)who would be the one to pet it and call it adorable before Clare/I mashes its brains in?
Mala, she seems to be unafraid of practically every bug there is. (Haha I agree, maybe i would do that too.)
Who made pancakes in the morning and almost set the house on fire?
Well. Fon. Everyone else can cooks rite?
Someone's tanning on the roof, who is it?
Well. According to Fon, me. But no. I'm not insane.
Who is the tallest in the house?
Fon. I come a close second
Who is the shortest in the house?
Kim, the youngest one
Who is(are) the loudest?
The twins
*Who laughs the loudest?
Me, in fact i would be so loud the neighbours would complain
*Who laughs the most?
Everyone
Who is the clown?
Fon.
Who is the most respectful?
Clare
Who is the one that always comes up with stupid ideas?
ME
Who's in bed first?
Contrary to popular belief i sleep at 11 everyday. Very early.
*Who's the one who keeps on getting locked out because they forgot the keys?
Shawn, Kim or Fon. Or possibly Mala.
If someone woke everyone up with pots and pans who would it be?
Mmybe me and Shawn
Who is always dancing?
Fon.
You spilt ice all over the kitchen floor, who would be the one to slip on it first?
Fon, shortly followed by Kim, who was chasing him.
Who is always playing some form of instrument?
does the mouth count? I’d be singing all the time... Otherwise, Tabby
*Who is always raising their eyebrows at the antics of everyone else?
Everyone has antics. We'll be used to it by then.
*What room would all of you like installed in the house?
Hmm. A room that has computers and a personalized sound booth system for everyone and has like a giant central book shelf were once u read out the title and author of the book a book would appear in your hands.
RP people coming next!
Labels: Bored, Chalet, friends, Happy, time waster, wasting time
1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
what kinda question is this? ive only been kissed on the cheek, and it's great to be loved, esp. during valentines so i guess cheeks would b the answer.
2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Very dry and my nasal cavity was totally blocked.
3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Hmm i guess it would be mariah carey. wait hold on that was in my dreams so i guess it would be a family photo a few weeks ago lol.
4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
No. But i can be a real ***tard sometimes
5: Would you ever donate blood?
I guess. But depends on how drunk i was and how much i felt indebted to the world.
6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
... Yes
7: Do you want someone dead?
Now? Yes. But its dormant so i guess it not much of a threat to whoever is reading this.
8:What does your last text message say?
Happy 13th of friday and valentines eve. :/. Wait i just got one while typing this: remember that there is SYF training for RP tmrw!!! (darn)
9:What are you thinking of right now?
whether i'll get my YDSP scholarship and how bored i am to actually do this.
10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes.
11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
11.30~~++
12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
I got it as a handmedown from my neighbour lol. it's really tight
13: Is someone on your mind right now?
erm. what kinda question is this again? yes i guess
14: Who was the last person to text you?
zac teo saying to come to training tmrw lol.
10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ(IDK if theyve already done since this is very late) :
1.Kai Cong(update more lor, what happened to the drama you always talked about last time?)
2. Kelson(get your blog up again plz)
3. Bum :) (you may have done so many that i think you've done this)
4. Tabby i guess?
5. Clar
6. hmm Joshua Ttc if you have a blog
7. Maybelle if you have a blog
8. Ryan (but your blog is dead so w/e)
9. Yi Ming, if you update anymore
10. Clare if you havent done it
15: Who is 2 having a relationship with? (kelson)
hmm. =) nope can't figure it out
16: Is 3 a male or a female? (bum)
korean & kinky. totally different catergorisically and hard to decide as well. see his candid fb photos to see what i mean =*)
17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?(maybelle and clare)
As friends, yes. As anything else, nu huh
18: What is Number 1 studying about? (Kaicong)
Now? I guess he's sick so get well soon but most probably geog or math or sumthing
19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
i think all within 1 month
20: Is Number 4 single? (tabby)
hm. IDK. ^^
21: Say something about Number 2. (Kelson)
hes. very bookwormy and also more imptantly malaysian
22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?(bum and joshua)
No way.
23: Describe Number 9.
He's very nice but so temperamental
24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? (Joshuat and maybelle)
erm. i have no idea.
25: Do you like Number 8? (Ryan)
as a friend yes.
1) Name a friend from A-Z
A-Ayj
B- Bum
C- Clare
D- duggal
E- edward(foo or tan)
F- Fonny
G-greg antono
H- Hafeez? we're classmates but idk
I- Irvin
J-Jia Jin
K-Kimberly
L-Lim
M-Mush
N-Nick Neo
O-Ong Junlin(cousin lol)
P- does poh simon count
Q- does quek theophilus count
R- Richard
S- Sanat. S people are rare
T- Tabby
U- wow. Really hard
V-Viet!
W-Wei Peng
X- X?? who in the world? wait hold on Xie wan yu(fiona xie lol)
Y- hmm. LEMME THINk. Yahweh?
Z- yiZhuan
2) Can R&S be together in a boygirl relationship?
no fking way
3) How is L related to you?
6/12 ^.^
4) Does Y know Z?
yup. he's god
5) If C betrays you, will you kill Him/Her?
most probably not, but if its something the magnitude of worldwide disaster i may consider.
6) If K steals your boyfriend/girlfriend, what will you do?
Hmm. Nah not possible
7) What if B tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
Hehe. Very funny. Hes on an abstinence period AND maybe already has some1
8) Will you and M get into a fight?
A bitchfight maybe
9) Who does R have a crush on?
hmm. not the type. Lady gaga i guess
10) If G call you a bitch, what will you do?
Erm. Call him back?
11) What's the relationship between you and E?
Good friends
12) Who is I's best friend?
the 2M people
13) Who does Z likes?
Me ^.^
14) What color does Y likes?
how am i supposed to know what god likes.
15) Where does G lives?
I have no idea. I guess in the middle of sg thats all i can guess out.
16) Did you and C had a fight before?
Minor tension thats all. No fights
17) Who is H's Best Friend?
I think Fadhli
18) What can you say about T?
Her emo post on her blog really scared me
19) What if W tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
Thats impossible.
20) Tag 10 People to do this Quiz Done.
Labels: Bored, friends, good news, hehe, Rp, time waster, Tragedy, WTF
So what happened a few days ago was that me & kaicong watched 4 christmases together at AMk hub.
hehe. I laughed my tooth out. And im not kidding i thinking my left front tooth tried to kick away my bottom right tooth when i was choking on all the movie had to offer. That was very funky.
And now my favourite time wasters. This is from tabbies's blog, but i don't think she'll mind.
Dear -someone-,I don’t really know how to tell you this, but (_1_).I think I realised it (_2_), (_3_) and I saw you (_4_) (_5_). I’m sure you’re (_6_) enough to understand (_7_). I’m returning (_8_) to you, but I’ll keep (_9_) as a memory. You should also know that I (_10_) and (_11_).(_12_),-Your name-
hehe. here goes nothing. Highlight to see the other optionsZ!!!!!
1. What’s the colour of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red- Our affair is over
White – I’m joining the Convent
Black - I dislike your eyelashes
Green - Our socks don’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re mean
Other - I’m in love with your cat
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February - Last year when you peed your pants
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my butt
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
October - When I quoted Forest Gump
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétienv
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat - With George Bush and Stephen Harper
4. What’s the colour of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - IgnoreBlue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put whipped cream on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over
5. What’s the colour of your undies?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
None – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other - The elephant in the corner
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs- Man
O.C.- Emotional
One Tree Hill- Open
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost- High
House- Sly
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news- Scarred
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy- Senile
Top Model- Middle-class
Annat- Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumbkid
Other - That your driving sucks (how should I describe this? Lets call it the 'after finishing MOI feeling'.)
8. What’s the colour of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - Your Elton John poster
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from Vegas
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your car
I have checkered walls... Like a chessboard black and white
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
C/D - The oil tank from your car
E/F - Your neighbour’s dog
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of that blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your glass eye
Y/Z - Your credit cards
10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
C/D - Never will forget that night
E/F - Always wanted to break your leg
G/H – Hate your cooking
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did not steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - Always will remember the pep talks
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – Am better off without you
11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship is ruined
Beer – you should stop picking your nose
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m incarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Wine – Thanks for the Cocaine
Cider – I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Liquor - I chew on your earlobes while you sleep
Other – I’m scratching my ass as you read this
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex-change
England - Good luck in jail
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
France – With tears of sadness
Spain - Go drown yourself
Before you go on. Don't ask why i am not wearing undies or a shirt.Dear Jesus,
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but you’re mean.I think I realised it when you smacked my butt at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on my prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude. I’m sure you’re cowardly enough to understand that you need a sex-change. I’m returning your car to you, but I’ll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of your feet and I’m scratching my ass as you read this.
Go Milk a Cow,
Shawn
Labels: Bored, friends, hehe, movies, time waster, Tragedy