SHAWNOLOGY

I'm restarting this blogging process because a) some of my friends are still blogging/have begun blogging again and it makes such an interesting read(save for ~~a few~~ one cryptic motherf---er) and so I'd thought I'd return the favour! b) Clare tells me to and she says it's carthartic.

HENCEFORTH BEGINS A SERIES OF COMPLETELY NON-SEQUITUR THOUGHTS. I find such a thought process has come to define Shawn.

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I'm really doubting the Carthasis that comes out of this blogging process! I Mean there's always this public audience; no matter how small, and the fact that shit stays forever online and there might be unforeseen consequences to what you post ie, @Steph! I guess this lends itself to the problem that out of the many facets of Shawn or experiences I do have, only the few that coincide with my preffered 'me' will surface.
How's that Carthatic in any sense? The Greek assume Cartharsis correctly as perceived by an AUDIENCE member because the extremely complicated internal dealings of a person in response to tragedy were (hopefully) completely honest to each individual and each individual could respond to the unnerving truths they had seen. But consider that what I put up is not 100% me, not because I'm fake(maybe la) but because there is so much of.. well, me that scares me? And that also had irreparable implications.

Also, I have a personal written diary so I much prefer that.

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This is really random, but since I've already reflected about 2012 let me be shallow and share the most shallow thing I reflected upon which was my looks. Haha I really do believe I am strangely comfortable with the way I look now. Exeunt

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I can't stand people who act like they are totally in demand in any group even when theyre not. AND EVEN WHEN THEY ARE ACTUALLY. It lends no support to the group and it's dynamics. The veracity of your "in-demandness" lends no credit to your behaviour. Seriously? Why would you that? To seem cool? and Popular? I thought such concepts dated in the teens and we are WAAAAAYY past that? No friends then hang out, busy then dont. WHAT THE F--- is the problem what strange demented, tormented Mean Girls quote have you come to identify with that causes such behaviour?
Worse still are people who judge me when I genuinely have no idea what to do but just want to weld a group and gel a group together and be a part of that group. This is in reference to no group in particular and don't guess because I have a fair share too many. Scratch that I think there's nothing wrong with wanting a million friends and being sincere is wanting to be that close to all of them. If I let you read my like an open book, accept the fact and move on. Read the damn book!
WHY JUDGE ME FOR BEING SO OPEN SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT?
I'm not entirely sure if being that open book is entirely my decision, and it doesn't matter. I just hope people are still naive enough to believe what I choose to! And perspicacious enough to deduce that such a belief is still very much worth holding on to.

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Turn towards brevity?! Brevity is the soul of wit but damn son, your potrait of a mofo thousand words is typed by a bunch of monkey jamming keys. There is but that much meaning in gibberish.

You're not a poet, your not a guy whose name starts with th and has references to a penis.

What is the point of an audience if the title is longer that the story.

THIS AINT SCOODY DOO

THIS AINT GOONI GOO GOO

THIS AINT POETRY SLAM.

(non sequitur)

what kind of performance is this

Get a diary. This thought belongs in a diary hahahaha.

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I love Cloud Atlas @Sudeep if you are reading. #YOUYND
Just a movie with such intricate attention to detail and Im a detail nigger so yeah.
So much to think about to and yes so much to feel.

Sigh I need a vlog thoughts are just slowly slipping out of my head.

Labels: birthdays, good news, hehe, long post, NOT happy, time waster, wasting time

What the hell. Its supposed to be rest time for after EOYS and suddnely I have stacks of work to do. But tis' okay let's talk about the funner stuff in Life before I proceed to checklist my next week. :D

Wokay so the rest of wednesday after working out I started studying for the new research attachment. God this stuff is hell ><. Materials Sciences+Physics+Chemistry+NO BIO? = HELL. I ASKED FOR A BIO PROJECT DUMBSHITS.

Anyway, thursday+friday was ultra fun. Went to KLP(again?) to bowl and I played 2 games. Haha well I guess I'm still pretty bad at it. But hey it was fun. Then we went to the arcade and I played Time Crisis. Actually I continued on from Shaw Shiuan and Bryan. But hey i still played really well until this guy with a anti-tank rifle for an arm with 8 full lives and supported by 500 axe-throwing terrorists in kelvar armor(discrepancy much?) sorta killed me. BUT I BROUGHT HIM TO 3 LIVES.

Anyway I went to seoul garden next. YEESH BRYAN YOUR PLAN IS SUCH A COPY OF ME/YC/MINGE/SANAT's outing plans. Nevermind, taking an idea from awesome is still awesome :D( uh I make myself sick). I think I ate a few cows/chickens/schools of fish. Also found out a lot of weird info bout this new group of friends. hehe. Its just.... well it's just another dysfunctional group of friends really, theres Amos always insulting ZiXiang, theres Shaw Shiuan being Bryan's slave. Haiz. Anyway had a fun time playing a crazy eating game, which IS ONCE AGAIN A DIRECT COPY OF MY USUALY PLAN. and whats worse was everyone was so pussy about it and the soup didnt even taste that bad.

The last part of the day which start at about 10pm was an excursion to Bryan's house. God I just realised how scandalous how all this sounds. It's about to get worse haha.

Okay so it was his Bday so we went to his house to play rock band, and beatles rock band. HAHA I AM PAUL MACARTNEY. :D that being said I am i pretty good singer/drummer. Then afterwards I think we sorta over did it since it was Bryan's bday, we played cards and took shots.

Vodka Shots. :D

I had alot. But the thing is I dont even turn red/feel dunk or even tipsy. not even tired. How am i supposed to be a party animal when im immune to alcohol. I even mixed the drinks D:.

Oh well I still have alot of work left.　

Checklist!

Think of something for Tuesday. Need to go to research opening ceremony, CCA photshoot and still be in school for resulsts release. STUDY MATERIAL CHEM BOOK.

Saturday Mg for awhile first, then Orgcomm outing. Wonder how it will go. I wonder if you orgcomm ppl have changed. (I know 6/12 doesnt haha)

Sunday MUST DO THE 2 PAPER 2s omg i hope i have time.

Thats all so far. dies.

Labels: birthdays, end of eoys, friends, guilty, Happy, NOT happy, plans, Rp

OMG GOSH EXAM ARR OVER.

*Does weird crunk dance, the sort you see in the 80s videos that doesn't really look like dancing, but more like arms and legs in particularly pattern-like movement, like what the Zohan dances like, you know that sort of dancing*

*Cools Down*

*you might see so many typos that you'll think that i'm insane, but I am, SO GET USED TO IT*

*does the pop'n'lock dance wildly. wiki/google that*

Phew. Alrite. Now that i'm sane, or less insane than my usual self, let me chronicle my life thus far in this harrowing eoy period. *pauses*

LIFE HAS BEEN AWESOME.

Yup, contrary to what most people would feel, life in Boarding gives the EOY period a new freshness, I guess. I mean how often do you actually have the discipline to sit down and do 400 marks worth of math? Only when eveyrone around you is doing that same. And how often can you just pop by to your neighbours room and sit down and eat cup noodles(free.btw) and study bio, or teach them chem(rhymes). ITS FRIKING AWESOME. Anyway, i've got one week left in boarding, i've got an awesome/weird roomie(no not awesomely weird) and hes got similar views with me on life and all and we can tlak about stuff, AND he's in a external chinese drama club, and how cool is that! So i'll be missing him once boarding life is over, and altho we'll meet in school it'll be different as friends nia. ROOMIES FTW! And erm everytihng boarding ghas with it as well. Really missing the lifestlye soon even thou i have like 1.5 weeks of boaridng left.

Right, now to talk about other stuff. Those from SHPS, ya'll know Sanat? The 6/9 dude? No?

*silence*

Okay anyways he was my classmate in p3 and we always compared abt who was funnier and all, and I guess he is now, but after I left for GEP never tot I would see ihm again but we're in the SAME FRIKING CLASS NOW, and hes so lame lunch with him is truly awesome. Although I am still smarter than him I mean 3.65> 3.2-3.3 right? Anyways, never tot and it truly been a great surprise to meet him again. Sanat most probably will never read this but if your seeing this, you're a great friend!

Right. about yesterday. I was STARING at clare on the train and my ri friends tot I was looking her up(wtf, classmates?!) and I kinda looked like a pervert. but anyway, it took clare a total number of 6 stops before she was like SHAWN! SORRYX10. I was kinda amused. And we didnt talk , since ti would be awkward for the 2 groups of friends. Really wanted to walk over and ask u where mg is today, and what to do since our exams are over(take that AYJ) at mg, and I DONT HAVE CARDS, but my immature friends were teasing me. GROW UP CLASS MATES. Buh if you're thinking why i was on the train with them in the first place, it's because there the only ppl in my class to live in the east.

And about MG. CLAR YOU HAVE to show me the fonnian lore, I keep hearing about and it already sounds like such a deep unirverse with so much to explore! I heard i got a tribe names after my barbequing expertise. hmm. waiting for that. And there so much to it I HAVE TO READ/SEE IT!

And about after exams plans I HAVE NOT IDEA WHAT IMA GONNA DO? Im thinking of finding a job, learning a new language, getitng fitter, learn a new skill and slack. COME ON 6.12/3c/RP give me ideas and things to do!

hmm. about RP. I really wonder whats gonna happen next year. I can only hope and wish.

ps. Bryan seethor are you happy now that I;ve given you Sb+ for your bday! HUH? HUH? gah why am i so nice to you

Labels: birthdays, Bored, end of eoys, Fail, friends, good news, guilty, Happy, hehe, long post, Must Watch, plans, wasting time

I have nothing to talk about again.

once again life is a monotonous cycle of...

wake up eat play go sch go out go training(can be ignored) go lan go home read book go dota go sleep

Again!

wake up eat play go sch go out go training(can be ignored) go lan go home read book go dota go sleep

And I actually miss doing work. If fact i want the world to go thru some apocalypse where everyone has to fight to survive or sumthing.

Morbid tots lol.

My sister is such a bimbo at P2 lol. I showed her just stand up and she said miley's part was the best. I died deep inside. Shes become another disney freak. (New disney, not the old classic gd disney)

warning some emo ranting next.(in singlish somemore so dun read)

I have been dotaing so much the last few days. Some good(pub game rikimaru kda: 8 ,2 ,15) some horrible (bryan 1 v1 lich riki game 0, 8). lol But overall its been fun.... btw wenwei and bryan happy birthday! and i feel pretty bad right now. cuz i kinda think ww treats me as a friend and i do too but when im like aorund the dota clique i ignore him(cuz they do too). and i talked behind his back. Wah im such a hypocrite.... i feel like hitting myself lol. oso esp when he shows magic tricks. like they are fun and all but sometimes abit out of place and boring. like when i doing math or talking to other ppl. quite random. but i will CHANGE AND BE NICER. I will not be a hypocrite. wait. wait a minute. nvm. Who wants to contribute for birthday presents for ww? to cover my guilt up. me and edward are thinking about gloves or some cool bag. but both cost alot. anyone?

and bryan actually turned nicer nowadays. maybe its just me. as in hes very nice and he not crazy anymore. like instance lar last time play heart i ask for seat he tell me fk off. nowadays he like wait awhile i play abit more. but i will not forget the raping and the step-on-cheek thing. but yar hes nicer nowadays.

Yup now that thats done. Kaicong if your reading this blog maybe go out 2gether watch tainted skin? maybe bring along yiming and kelson? i dunno 2 ppl watch movie not fun. and i have heard gd things about the movie. So up for it? reply soon.

Btw anyone from 6/12, when is our class chalet or isit stopped or sumthing. someone please reply soon.

P.S. Bumsoo when can you help me with the blogskin.? ..... tagging appreciated

Labels: birthdays, blogskins, dota, end of eoys, guilty, movies, plans, posted in singlish