SHAWNOLOGY

I'm restarting this blogging process because a) some of my friends are still blogging/have begun blogging again and it makes such an interesting read(save for ~~a few~~ one cryptic motherf---er) and so I'd thought I'd return the favour! b) Clare tells me to and she says it's carthartic.

HENCEFORTH BEGINS A SERIES OF COMPLETELY NON-SEQUITUR THOUGHTS. I find such a thought process has come to define Shawn.

1
I'm really doubting the Carthasis that comes out of this blogging process! I Mean there's always this public audience; no matter how small, and the fact that shit stays forever online and there might be unforeseen consequences to what you post ie, @Steph! I guess this lends itself to the problem that out of the many facets of Shawn or experiences I do have, only the few that coincide with my preffered 'me' will surface.
How's that Carthatic in any sense? The Greek assume Cartharsis correctly as perceived by an AUDIENCE member because the extremely complicated internal dealings of a person in response to tragedy were (hopefully) completely honest to each individual and each individual could respond to the unnerving truths they had seen. But consider that what I put up is not 100% me, not because I'm fake(maybe la) but because there is so much of.. well, me that scares me? And that also had irreparable implications.

Also, I have a personal written diary so I much prefer that.

2
This is really random, but since I've already reflected about 2012 let me be shallow and share the most shallow thing I reflected upon which was my looks. Haha I really do believe I am strangely comfortable with the way I look now. Exeunt

3
I can't stand people who act like they are totally in demand in any group even when theyre not. AND EVEN WHEN THEY ARE ACTUALLY. It lends no support to the group and it's dynamics. The veracity of your "in-demandness" lends no credit to your behaviour. Seriously? Why would you that? To seem cool? and Popular? I thought such concepts dated in the teens and we are WAAAAAYY past that? No friends then hang out, busy then dont. WHAT THE F--- is the problem what strange demented, tormented Mean Girls quote have you come to identify with that causes such behaviour?
Worse still are people who judge me when I genuinely have no idea what to do but just want to weld a group and gel a group together and be a part of that group. This is in reference to no group in particular and don't guess because I have a fair share too many. Scratch that I think there's nothing wrong with wanting a million friends and being sincere is wanting to be that close to all of them. If I let you read my like an open book, accept the fact and move on. Read the damn book!
WHY JUDGE ME FOR BEING SO OPEN SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT?
I'm not entirely sure if being that open book is entirely my decision, and it doesn't matter. I just hope people are still naive enough to believe what I choose to! And perspicacious enough to deduce that such a belief is still very much worth holding on to.

4
Turn towards brevity?! Brevity is the soul of wit but damn son, your potrait of a mofo thousand words is typed by a bunch of monkey jamming keys. There is but that much meaning in gibberish.

You're not a poet, your not a guy whose name starts with th and has references to a penis.

What is the point of an audience if the title is longer that the story.

THIS AINT SCOODY DOO

THIS AINT GOONI GOO GOO

THIS AINT POETRY SLAM.

(non sequitur)

what kind of performance is this

Get a diary. This thought belongs in a diary hahahaha.

5
I love Cloud Atlas @Sudeep if you are reading. #YOUYND
Just a movie with such intricate attention to detail and Im a detail nigger so yeah.
So much to think about to and yes so much to feel.

Sigh I need a vlog thoughts are just slowly slipping out of my head.

Labels: birthdays, good news, hehe, long post, NOT happy, time waster, wasting time

OMG GOSH EXAM ARR OVER.

*Does weird crunk dance, the sort you see in the 80s videos that doesn't really look like dancing, but more like arms and legs in particularly pattern-like movement, like what the Zohan dances like, you know that sort of dancing*

*Cools Down*

*you might see so many typos that you'll think that i'm insane, but I am, SO GET USED TO IT*

*does the pop'n'lock dance wildly. wiki/google that*

Phew. Alrite. Now that i'm sane, or less insane than my usual self, let me chronicle my life thus far in this harrowing eoy period. *pauses*

LIFE HAS BEEN AWESOME.

Yup, contrary to what most people would feel, life in Boarding gives the EOY period a new freshness, I guess. I mean how often do you actually have the discipline to sit down and do 400 marks worth of math? Only when eveyrone around you is doing that same. And how often can you just pop by to your neighbours room and sit down and eat cup noodles(free.btw) and study bio, or teach them chem(rhymes). ITS FRIKING AWESOME. Anyway, i've got one week left in boarding, i've got an awesome/weird roomie(no not awesomely weird) and hes got similar views with me on life and all and we can tlak about stuff, AND he's in a external chinese drama club, and how cool is that! So i'll be missing him once boarding life is over, and altho we'll meet in school it'll be different as friends nia. ROOMIES FTW! And erm everytihng boarding ghas with it as well. Really missing the lifestlye soon even thou i have like 1.5 weeks of boaridng left.

Right, now to talk about other stuff. Those from SHPS, ya'll know Sanat? The 6/9 dude? No?

*silence*

Okay anyways he was my classmate in p3 and we always compared abt who was funnier and all, and I guess he is now, but after I left for GEP never tot I would see ihm again but we're in the SAME FRIKING CLASS NOW, and hes so lame lunch with him is truly awesome. Although I am still smarter than him I mean 3.65> 3.2-3.3 right? Anyways, never tot and it truly been a great surprise to meet him again. Sanat most probably will never read this but if your seeing this, you're a great friend!

Right. about yesterday. I was STARING at clare on the train and my ri friends tot I was looking her up(wtf, classmates?!) and I kinda looked like a pervert. but anyway, it took clare a total number of 6 stops before she was like SHAWN! SORRYX10. I was kinda amused. And we didnt talk , since ti would be awkward for the 2 groups of friends. Really wanted to walk over and ask u where mg is today, and what to do since our exams are over(take that AYJ) at mg, and I DONT HAVE CARDS, but my immature friends were teasing me. GROW UP CLASS MATES. Buh if you're thinking why i was on the train with them in the first place, it's because there the only ppl in my class to live in the east.

And about MG. CLAR YOU HAVE to show me the fonnian lore, I keep hearing about and it already sounds like such a deep unirverse with so much to explore! I heard i got a tribe names after my barbequing expertise. hmm. waiting for that. And there so much to it I HAVE TO READ/SEE IT!

And about after exams plans I HAVE NOT IDEA WHAT IMA GONNA DO? Im thinking of finding a job, learning a new language, getitng fitter, learn a new skill and slack. COME ON 6.12/3c/RP give me ideas and things to do!

hmm. about RP. I really wonder whats gonna happen next year. I can only hope and wish.

ps. Bryan seethor are you happy now that I;ve given you Sb+ for your bday! HUH? HUH? gah why am i so nice to you

Labels: birthdays, Bored, end of eoys, Fail, friends, good news, guilty, Happy, hehe, long post, Must Watch, plans, wasting time

Haha everything in the past week has been absolutely fantastic.

List of things to blog about:-
CRVII
Lit up
Movie(Drag me to Hell)
Friends
Future.

ooh agenda.

Come back tmrw to do all this.

Labels: good news, long post, piles of homework, plans, time waster, wasting time

Why who doesn't love and respect their father.

Noone right? But most do so because its a social norm.

Some parts of the post are going to sound dreary and HK-drama serial like, but heck.

Today was a great day. Started off school fine, and the day was slack. There was the all important "Friendship Day", had physics, which is an eternal bore(what in the World is Cathode Ray CRO and Kinematics?), and we had PE, where i skipped my 2.4 pretest because i was "Sick". After recess, continued a class viewing of Erin Brokovich, which is a true masterpiece of modern flim(ok not really but its good).

After that, slacked around school and tried to build up stamina by running but never got to it. Had RP auditions, where numerous sec 1s and 2s came to try out. I'm not supposed to say anything(would be so rude). However the sec3s were tasked with the job of acting along with the auditionees , which i told we did quite badly at but nvm. Some good talented guys. Thats all i think. And a better turnout than I expected.

After that just screwed around with the always fantastic RP guys. Thing done included:
a VERY violent pillow fight
Trying to balance 7 people on 2 wobbly cresent shaped sponges
Singing and Dancing and Acting
Accents
Answering Zac's queries since he was playing are u smarter than a 5th grader

After that had dinner with the family at the crazy ass tampines area. You know the one with 3 malls around one shopping mall? And it was peak period. So we had dinner, and we were walking back home (its only 1km) and then halfway thru the bus stop we see this old lady, the sort that collects cans, smells like poop and most probably has an unfillial son who cant give a shit. She most probably had sort of some rheumatic problem cuz she was limping quite badly.

She fell from her walking stick. The cans she collected split on the floor and NOONE BLOODY HELPED HER UP. For 5 minutes my dad was in a moral dilemma. We were waiting for someone else to help her(as most singaporeans do). Noone did. Why, in a busy crowd, society doesnt seem to care if a frail old lady just collapse upon herself. WHY? I don't know if this problem is an sg one, but i think it is. We really need some slapping to wake us up from our moral slumber.

However, Thank GOD (and morals)(and courage from my dad) my dad went up to the poor woman, helped her with her cans and picked her up. But she was wobbly and unstable, and she needed a hand to hold. My god the crowd looked at my dad as if he was wrong to help the woman. I was about to break out into a rant at the crowd but i kinda banished the thought. My dad, brave and unfazed, picked the woman up(and she smlt really bad btw, like bad yogurt), walked,or sortof lifted) her to the nearest coffe shop about 100meters away. Not a word of complaint from my dad. He sat her and bought her some food(my god was she bony).

Throught all this, I wanted to cry. In anger, sadness, and pure respect.

A. WHY ARE THERE HOMELESS OLD WOMAN ON THE STREETS? WHERE ARE THE CHILDREN? WHY ISN"T THE GOVERNMETN DOING ANYTHING? FUCK!

b. Oh wow. This lady needs help. Wonder if Alicia Goh still has that friends of hers friend in social services.

c. Dad. You da man. I mean, would u have the guts to help this lady in a crowd of people trying to kill each other to get the the buses, blocking ALL of them in the process, because u knew it was the right thing to do? i wouldn't. i dont have the guts. My dad does. *Bows in respect*

Do I respect my father? yes. of course i do. the event speaks for itself.

Labels: good news, long post, NOT happy, Rp, WTF

I don't Know. (heyhey line from the play. nvm. sorry)

I've been feeling all so empty after my SYF, since it took up my time and was basically the reason i looked forward to school. Halfway thru the first period in class, I would think of rehearsals. During recess, i would look forward to rehearsals. basically, school was a time filler. Other cca friend felt syf was a pain and torture, but this production with rp was REALLY fun. it became like Tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), or cannbis haha, some addictive drug. Now is the cold turkey period i guess.

Now that its over, theres NOTHING to look forward to. Life is back into a routine, and my post production blues are increasing exponentially.

Some people feel the worst effects of it immediately on the day after their play, but i dont.

Mine increases to a tipping point and i turn really sad. like i would b really sensitive and down. and unmotivated. Haha but i'll grow out of it! And be happy.

Right? Haiz. At least i found my true calling. Go RP!

Now that i got THAT out. Yey MGs. I've seen,heard and read so much about your adventures. Haha i bet fonny is the creator of like 90% of them all. What do yall study?

And its been so long since i've chatted with 6/12... Aha i still rmbr my weird jumpshot facial reactions with yall.

P.S. Good Luck Greg for your DI tmrw!

Labels: Fail, friends, good news, NOT happy, Rp, Tragedy, wasting time

I DID IT>

I DID IT>

I GOT THE YDSP SCHOLARSHIP!!! I CANT BELIEVE IT !!! I"M STILL READING JUST TO MAKE SURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YATTTAA

(THATS FOR AYJ WHO SAID ONLY SOMEONE WITH 4.7 COULD GET IT)

on a separate note, RP is awesome. Its the only cca ive ever looked forward to, and the people there are great(most of the time), AND its some thing ive always wanted, ANd its fun.

I'm in lalaland.

But not for long, cuz theres hist cct tmrw which i havent mugged for.

(random post)

Labels: good news, Happy, hehe, Rp, wasting time, WTF

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
what kinda question is this? ive only been kissed on the cheek, and it's great to be loved, esp. during valentines so i guess cheeks would b the answer.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Very dry and my nasal cavity was totally blocked.

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Hmm i guess it would be mariah carey. wait hold on that was in my dreams so i guess it would be a family photo a few weeks ago lol.

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
No. But i can be a real ***tard sometimes

5: Would you ever donate blood?
I guess. But depends on how drunk i was and how much i felt indebted to the world.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
... Yes

7: Do you want someone dead?
Now? Yes. But its dormant so i guess it not much of a threat to whoever is reading this.

8:What does your last text message say?
Happy 13th of friday and valentines eve. :/. Wait i just got one while typing this: remember that there is SYF training for RP tmrw!!! (darn)

9:What are you thinking of right now?
whether i'll get my YDSP scholarship and how bored i am to actually do this.

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
11.30~~++

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
I got it as a handmedown from my neighbour lol. it's really tight

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
erm. what kinda question is this again? yes i guess

14: Who was the last person to text you?
zac teo saying to come to training tmrw lol.

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ(IDK if theyve already done since this is very late) :
1.Kai Cong(update more lor, what happened to the drama you always talked about last time?)
2. Kelson(get your blog up again plz)
3. Bum :) (you may have done so many that i think you've done this)
4. Tabby i guess?
5. Clar
6. hmm Joshua Ttc if you have a blog
7. Maybelle if you have a blog
8. Ryan (but your blog is dead so w/e)
9. Yi Ming, if you update anymore
10. Clare if you havent done it

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with? (kelson)
hmm. =) nope can't figure it out

16: Is 3 a male or a female? (bum)
korean & kinky. totally different catergorisically and hard to decide as well. see his candid fb photos to see what i mean =*)

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?(maybelle and clare)
As friends, yes. As anything else, nu huh

18: What is Number 1 studying about? (Kaicong)
Now? I guess he's sick so get well soon but most probably geog or math or sumthing

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
i think all within 1 month

20: Is Number 4 single? (tabby)
hm. IDK. ^^

21: Say something about Number 2. (Kelson)
hes. very bookwormy and also more imptantly malaysian

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?(bum and joshua)
No way.

23: Describe Number 9.
He's very nice but so temperamental

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? (Joshuat and maybelle)
erm. i have no idea.

25: Do you like Number 8? (Ryan)
as a friend yes.

1) Name a friend from A-Z
A-Ayj
B- Bum
C- Clare
D- duggal
E- edward(foo or tan)
F- Fonny
G-greg antono
H- Hafeez? we're classmates but idk
I- Irvin
J-Jia Jin
K-Kimberly
L-Lim
M-Mush
N-Nick Neo
O-Ong Junlin(cousin lol)
P- does poh simon count
Q- does quek theophilus count
R- Richard
S- Sanat. S people are rare
T- Tabby
U- wow. Really hard
V-Viet!
W-Wei Peng
X- X?? who in the world? wait hold on Xie wan yu(fiona xie lol)
Y- hmm. LEMME THINk. Yahweh?
Z- yiZhuan

2) Can R&S be together in a boygirl relationship?
no fking way

3) How is L related to you?
6/12 ^.^

4) Does Y know Z?
yup. he's god

5) If C betrays you, will you kill Him/Her?
most probably not, but if its something the magnitude of worldwide disaster i may consider.

6) If K steals your boyfriend/girlfriend, what will you do?
Hmm. Nah not possible

7) What if B tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
Hehe. Very funny. Hes on an abstinence period AND maybe already has some1

8) Will you and M get into a fight?
A bitchfight maybe

9) Who does R have a crush on?
hmm. not the type. Lady gaga i guess

10) If G call you a bitch, what will you do?
Erm. Call him back?

11) What's the relationship between you and E?
Good friends

12) Who is I's best friend?
the 2M people

13) Who does Z likes?
Me ^.^

14) What color does Y likes?
how am i supposed to know what god likes.

15) Where does G lives?
I have no idea. I guess in the middle of sg thats all i can guess out.

16) Did you and C had a fight before?
Minor tension thats all. No fights

17) Who is H's Best Friend?
I think Fadhli

18) What can you say about T?
Her emo post on her blog really scared me

19) What if W tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
Thats impossible.

20) Tag 10 People to do this Quiz Done.

Labels: Bored, friends, good news, hehe, Rp, time waster, Tragedy, WTF

I am in a point of my lfie when I am unable to decide what to do.

Firstly. Mushrooms or cheese bread for supper. These are the painstaking heartwrenching decisions one has to make everyday.

No but really, life has not been good for me. My CCA is in Shambles, because two core CCAs is not good for you. :/. Just joined Raffles Players(technically, but ive been doing drama since sec1), and SYF is coming up soon. Gym attendance is very much non existent.

School is also bad. 3scihist was kinda a rushed decision. I am slightly doubting my choice.

And, it has also just occured to me that I HAVE NO LIFE. ARRGH.
EMO. ARGH

However, in the midst of all this sorrow (>.<) , good news is that unknownst to me ,i was nominated for a scholarship called the YDSP (young defence scientists programme) scholarship. Interview tmrw!! -.-

Now time to study for bio test, prepare for interview, do Chinese presentation, do math, prep for chem test, prep for RE. AHHHHH

Labels: Fail, friends, good news, hehe, Tragedy